dreamt again.
i wanted to eat mee goreng. one of da shops cheated me. she cooked but da portion was so little that it would just cost me 20 cents. so i went ovre to another shop. thiw one said no prob. but she gave me da same portion as the other one. i made some noise this time and she finally cooked properly. but when she did, the noodles flew away as if it was light as feather, so i had to chase it. nawas and rashid was in da picture too.
then i head back to a place with 2 cars. one beatles. shaggy and scooby doo was inside. they opened up the back fo the car and saw an empty plate. they were surprised to see an empty styrofaom plate because they expected mee gorentg to be there that they cooked. shaggy said, "i knew i put ketchup and mustard. MUSTARD! thats it. mustard made it invisible" and its true. i could taste the mee goreng and finished it up in 4 mouthfuls.
da 2 cars. i was sitting in front already. da car couldnt move because it is activated by a special card. there was this kid. he wanted to be among us so he stole the mom's card and swiped it into our car to activate it. i think we left him behind because the mom made noise. i remembered a lawn that was being watered by automatic sprinklers. da boy took his bicycle and cycled to find us while getting soaked and said. " but they are my friends"
then i took chinook wif wan, my guitarist. we passed by this road, i remembered dreaming da first half of this dream before. imagine a 2 way single lane road. winding, badly litted, kampung atmosphere. i remembered passing by 3 or 4 humps. then, we hit a cemetary. HUGE with a lot of tombstones. i wasnt afraid. just cautious. i had to push chinook up this steep slope with tombstones everywhere. luckily wan helped. i remembered the white pong pong tree flowers scatterd nicely. white and bright. i was already taking notice of my surroundings. i could feel that the place was wet too. for all i noe, i couldnt leave chinook alone. that was da bottomline.
once we reached the top, i met this old man on da mrt train. told him about the cemetary and he said, yeah, thats the Dorset cemetary, the ones at bukit panjang. It didnt make any sense at all to me.
thats all for now. i dont feel like sleeping no more eventhough im quiet tired. oh i just remembered another scene from the previous dream. there was this guy and this girl. da girl was acting strange. she had long hair. black. all i could remember was that the guy told me that the girl is possessed, mildly. i took a look at her and agreed.
ok. dont freak out guys. these are just short movie clips that just happened. beyond my control. da weird thing about me when i'm having dreams, may it be bad or good, is that, i can never control my dream. for example, i know it was hard for me to push chinook up the slope. i could have turned myself into something bigger but i just dotn think about it. secondly, if i'm in a bad dream and i seek god's protection, i can say my prayers in my dream. very clearly. i have another friend who shared the same abilities but she can say da whole verses from this particular chapter of the Quran. her mom heard da whole thing clearly. the best thing about it is that, she doesnt memorise it.
lastly, i was in this swimming pool with gracia and another guy. she said something wrong but gave me a peck on da cheek to say she's sorry before we left the pool. da place around da pool was spacious. i remembered sinking to the bottom of da pool but left anyway.
dats it lah. nothing else.
dont forget to share your dreams!!!
ja
dreamy and still tired
Thursday, December 29, 2005
Dreams
I was awoken from my dream by my neighbor
running in indonesia, sandy beaches, potholes
dark
2 rooms
slpet in one, didnt open the other
spoke to malek's grandma, she told me to open the other one.
did shuttle runs
raced with some people
doorbell rang and i stayed back with some people in da room. face panick. after 6 times of ringing, they opened the door. they let da person in. in miy mind was batman.
i'm swtill closign my eyes to try and capture what actually happend.
oh
i ran with my colleagues at 3ork, the4 karang gunui people. ragoo got pingat bakti because he saved somebody from shotting himself. they were armed
i got 2 free trips. one to vietnam and the other to i dunno where
i went back to my pri school and talked to some aunties there.
still closing my eyes to think of anything else
oh
ok. i was loooking at this ho=yge home
brown colour, near the hdb estates. sitting at a table brown colourl. anticipating somebody to arrive. the house was big and beautiful
thats it. tgats all i can remmeber. in reality, the doorbell was rung by my neighbour. she needed to use the phone badly. she has no phone. i'[m not gonna change da mistakes cause this is me typing while closing my eyes and peering once in a while. damn tiredlah! later i shall interpret da dreams.
why dont you guys share some dreams that you can remember. that'll be kewl! good ones, bad ones, weird ones, kinky ones. hehe
ja
eyes half closed.
running in indonesia, sandy beaches, potholes
dark
2 rooms
slpet in one, didnt open the other
spoke to malek's grandma, she told me to open the other one.
did shuttle runs
raced with some people
doorbell rang and i stayed back with some people in da room. face panick. after 6 times of ringing, they opened the door. they let da person in. in miy mind was batman.
i'm swtill closign my eyes to try and capture what actually happend.
oh
i ran with my colleagues at 3ork, the4 karang gunui people. ragoo got pingat bakti because he saved somebody from shotting himself. they were armed
i got 2 free trips. one to vietnam and the other to i dunno where
i went back to my pri school and talked to some aunties there.
still closing my eyes to think of anything else
oh
ok. i was loooking at this ho=yge home
brown colour, near the hdb estates. sitting at a table brown colourl. anticipating somebody to arrive. the house was big and beautiful
thats it. tgats all i can remmeber. in reality, the doorbell was rung by my neighbour. she needed to use the phone badly. she has no phone. i'[m not gonna change da mistakes cause this is me typing while closing my eyes and peering once in a while. damn tiredlah! later i shall interpret da dreams.
why dont you guys share some dreams that you can remember. that'll be kewl! good ones, bad ones, weird ones, kinky ones. hehe
ja
eyes half closed.
Ja va
juz woke up. was damn tired from work. da whole day, i only ate 2 epok epok. thats it. i noe it aint healthy to be depriving oneself of food. i have no reasons for not eating. perhaps, i'm just too focused on work. i just had a random thought in mind. these are da list of things i would like to have if i have financial freedom. may Allah assist me in reaching my goal.
1. build a mosque
2. build a home for da orphanage or elderly
3. help any non-profit organisation especially animal ones. i think not much focused has been given them and i thank those who continue to lend their support to them. My heart goes out to you.
this just made me remember this cat who was lying by the roadside. i just hope that it wasnt dead because it was lying in an awkward position. thank goodness it was sleeping but by the look of things, the cat needs attention badly. i could only offer my prayers for it to get better from Allah's grace and compassion. thats all i could do...
ja
ja va coffeebeans
1. build a mosque
2. build a home for da orphanage or elderly
3. help any non-profit organisation especially animal ones. i think not much focused has been given them and i thank those who continue to lend their support to them. My heart goes out to you.
this just made me remember this cat who was lying by the roadside. i just hope that it wasnt dead because it was lying in an awkward position. thank goodness it was sleeping but by the look of things, the cat needs attention badly. i could only offer my prayers for it to get better from Allah's grace and compassion. thats all i could do...
ja
ja va coffeebeans
Lethargic
Today was kinda busy. woke up to find myself still grappling with the fact that i have to go to serangoon road on public transport. it was refreshing nevertheless but i cant go on like this without chinook for long. managed to get some bodykit for her and a nice surprise for everybody if they get to see her really soon! i can't wait to unveil her. really... my pride so far.
i managed to do some reading da very least... i felt i did an impossible thing. i know that the only way to improve my writing would be to constantly read and learn how da language is used. apart from that, you are constantly surprising yourself on how much you dont know about this world. i had to enjoy da train ride as much as possible before i have to start driving.
driving was kinda difficult. was feeling tired and i couldnt concentrate much. had to rely on hamzah for directions and stuff. all i noe was that my feet did da cluthing, gearing and steering. its like da body moving without the head. that was what i felt. zombified. dont be like me, ok guys?
at least i worked for 4 hours today... :) thats enough for the week i guess and im thankful for whatever i have cause i'm still alive and smiling today. hopefully my smile would make others smile too. dont be sad or angry ok people? smile more cause you might never know who is watching. i've seen a little kid smile once and he just made me smile on da spot. Wenrong was his name. if you read my previous posts, he was da kid who played ice skating with me. thanks wenrong.
ja
still smiling
i managed to do some reading da very least... i felt i did an impossible thing. i know that the only way to improve my writing would be to constantly read and learn how da language is used. apart from that, you are constantly surprising yourself on how much you dont know about this world. i had to enjoy da train ride as much as possible before i have to start driving.
driving was kinda difficult. was feeling tired and i couldnt concentrate much. had to rely on hamzah for directions and stuff. all i noe was that my feet did da cluthing, gearing and steering. its like da body moving without the head. that was what i felt. zombified. dont be like me, ok guys?
at least i worked for 4 hours today... :) thats enough for the week i guess and im thankful for whatever i have cause i'm still alive and smiling today. hopefully my smile would make others smile too. dont be sad or angry ok people? smile more cause you might never know who is watching. i've seen a little kid smile once and he just made me smile on da spot. Wenrong was his name. if you read my previous posts, he was da kid who played ice skating with me. thanks wenrong.
ja
still smiling
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
Grand Opening
I'm going off to buy assessories for Chinook. Trying to make her beautiful before school starts. After which, back to being a karang guni man.
Anyway, since i'm going to take Comms 201, I shall try from today onwards to write as proper as I can. I do have tendencies to write my own lingos and short forms. Aiyah, we'll see how. It'll start from now.
7 Till Dawn is going to perform for Singapore Management University inaugural Grand Opening. Therefore, for one and only one time, will I open this entry for requests from YOU GUYS! YAY!!! Hmmm... Just shoot whatever songs that you guys would like to hear and we'll consider them ok? Please do understand that we only have limited number of time to perform and we already do have a few songs in mind but we don't mind slotting in 1 or 2 more just for you guys. Who knows, your favourites would be picked. Just post them under comments and leave your name or cute nickname to make it interesting ok? Let's not make this blog dull because it just needs colours and MORE colours! :D
ok. going off already. missing you guys after laying off from writing.
ja
i hate diet pepsi and coke
Anyway, since i'm going to take Comms 201, I shall try from today onwards to write as proper as I can. I do have tendencies to write my own lingos and short forms. Aiyah, we'll see how. It'll start from now.
7 Till Dawn is going to perform for Singapore Management University inaugural Grand Opening. Therefore, for one and only one time, will I open this entry for requests from YOU GUYS! YAY!!! Hmmm... Just shoot whatever songs that you guys would like to hear and we'll consider them ok? Please do understand that we only have limited number of time to perform and we already do have a few songs in mind but we don't mind slotting in 1 or 2 more just for you guys. Who knows, your favourites would be picked. Just post them under comments and leave your name or cute nickname to make it interesting ok? Let's not make this blog dull because it just needs colours and MORE colours! :D
ok. going off already. missing you guys after laying off from writing.
ja
i hate diet pepsi and coke
Photograph
Just a recent photograph. i always thought of myself as a rebel from young. i think i have that little rebel still kicking in me.
ja
Karang Guni
Not many of you know that i've been working as a karang guni man for da past 3 years. ad hoc to say da very least. back then it was frequent because my evenings were free from projects and rehearsals. da job has taught me a lot ever since. patience is a virtue that one needs to practice everyday. i have met many demanding customers in my life and it has taught me to control my emotions. People have been brought up in very different ways. No one person can be the same because of the different environment that it has been surrounded with.
i always give people the benefit of the doubt. when they get angry or demanding, there must be other underlying reasons that we just dont know which cause them to behave that way. besides, whats the point of being angry. you're just making yourself feeling miserable. and when i'm really angry, i just dont speak. i dont want to say da wrong things. and again. i've learnt it da hard way.
ive learnt to appreciate my life more eventhough i dont have much, material wise. i've seen people worse off. i've seen people with blind families but live happily together.
i just admire clean and organised rooms. rooms that has proper shelves with gifts and pictures of loved ones. my family dont really practice this and its difficult to adjust to my ideal room but i'm still learning to change. i've seen messy rooms which i hate cause i have one myself. my ambition is to have a clean and organised room. sounds funny doesnt it? but yeah. no harm changing for a good cause. thats what i've learnt.
i've toiled from day to night just to scrimp and save to buy my own stuff. i dont shop much and i learn to spend money wisely. i treasure the stuff that i buy and thats why, when i lose it, i'll tear and feel as if my heart has been stabbed.
along the way, while carrying huge cupboards, dinner tables, chairs, fridges, ovens, vases, 34 inch tvs, lies hidden treasures that just makes me wanna work there more. people throw away little ornaments that they usually give out during weddings as gifts of appreciation for coming. creative ideas as presents for my friends start to flow in. to give and not to receive, that is what i've learnt for the past 2 months. i've learnt to give more cause i dont seem to be doing so all this while. i've learnt to give surprises to friends once in a while to show that i really appreciate the sincere friendship all this while.
eventhough the pay aint much, i still continue to do this job because i hope that with the effort that i put in, the company will get more profits. when the company get more profits, the mosques and underpriviledged homes will get more money. thats how this company operates. a certain portion of da proceeds will be returned back to these institutions because they provide us with some of the contacts. if it will benefit them, why not? i'll still continue to work after graduation.
life is short. learn to give more and not expect anything in return. i guess, that is sincerity at its best.
ja
i'm just a karang guni man and nothing more
i always give people the benefit of the doubt. when they get angry or demanding, there must be other underlying reasons that we just dont know which cause them to behave that way. besides, whats the point of being angry. you're just making yourself feeling miserable. and when i'm really angry, i just dont speak. i dont want to say da wrong things. and again. i've learnt it da hard way.
ive learnt to appreciate my life more eventhough i dont have much, material wise. i've seen people worse off. i've seen people with blind families but live happily together.
i just admire clean and organised rooms. rooms that has proper shelves with gifts and pictures of loved ones. my family dont really practice this and its difficult to adjust to my ideal room but i'm still learning to change. i've seen messy rooms which i hate cause i have one myself. my ambition is to have a clean and organised room. sounds funny doesnt it? but yeah. no harm changing for a good cause. thats what i've learnt.
i've toiled from day to night just to scrimp and save to buy my own stuff. i dont shop much and i learn to spend money wisely. i treasure the stuff that i buy and thats why, when i lose it, i'll tear and feel as if my heart has been stabbed.
along the way, while carrying huge cupboards, dinner tables, chairs, fridges, ovens, vases, 34 inch tvs, lies hidden treasures that just makes me wanna work there more. people throw away little ornaments that they usually give out during weddings as gifts of appreciation for coming. creative ideas as presents for my friends start to flow in. to give and not to receive, that is what i've learnt for the past 2 months. i've learnt to give more cause i dont seem to be doing so all this while. i've learnt to give surprises to friends once in a while to show that i really appreciate the sincere friendship all this while.
eventhough the pay aint much, i still continue to do this job because i hope that with the effort that i put in, the company will get more profits. when the company get more profits, the mosques and underpriviledged homes will get more money. thats how this company operates. a certain portion of da proceeds will be returned back to these institutions because they provide us with some of the contacts. if it will benefit them, why not? i'll still continue to work after graduation.
life is short. learn to give more and not expect anything in return. i guess, that is sincerity at its best.
ja
i'm just a karang guni man and nothing more
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Environment
It has been a while since i last blogged. anybody missed me? lol. if you do, juz drop a comment and leave a nickname or something. i really wonder who actually pops by to read my worthless entries.
anyways, i'm at a sheesha parlour, Samar at arab st, with my malay friends. I don't sheesha. i just feel as if its da same as smoking but in actual fact, it isnt. its inhaling smoke and i still associate it with smoking. nvm. But i really do like the environment. The high ceiling, the antique architecture that bears a similar resemblance of da olden days of the shophouses in singapore. the space is huge i tell ya. very chill out. it just gives me the creative environment that i really need. the only thing that is not nice to me is the music. all arabic. how i wish there is an acoustic set or some ballads being played. more lounge music perhaps. i dont mind singing actually.
maybe i might wanna try something out wif some of the people here. who knows, an acoustic set, Royale style or just me and the keyboardist. you guys just come and enjoy sheesha and great company.
i'm actually typing at Samar right now. free connection. woohoo. shioook. da lighting jus gave me this nice vibe to write and to think. ok. gtg. friends wanna go home. till then. dont forget to put your name in da coment box, even if it is just a nickname. thanks guys
ja
shophouses
anyways, i'm at a sheesha parlour, Samar at arab st, with my malay friends. I don't sheesha. i just feel as if its da same as smoking but in actual fact, it isnt. its inhaling smoke and i still associate it with smoking. nvm. But i really do like the environment. The high ceiling, the antique architecture that bears a similar resemblance of da olden days of the shophouses in singapore. the space is huge i tell ya. very chill out. it just gives me the creative environment that i really need. the only thing that is not nice to me is the music. all arabic. how i wish there is an acoustic set or some ballads being played. more lounge music perhaps. i dont mind singing actually.
maybe i might wanna try something out wif some of the people here. who knows, an acoustic set, Royale style or just me and the keyboardist. you guys just come and enjoy sheesha and great company.
i'm actually typing at Samar right now. free connection. woohoo. shioook. da lighting jus gave me this nice vibe to write and to think. ok. gtg. friends wanna go home. till then. dont forget to put your name in da coment box, even if it is just a nickname. thanks guys
ja
shophouses
Monday, December 19, 2005
Word of the week
Can't wait for wednesday, really.
Patience has been the word of the week.
Words have been piercing and hurting at times
But patience still resides in me
Patience has been the word of the week
I'm happy but i'm still missing
Patience has been the word of the week
I wish i could go out there and spend freely like many but boss still hasnt call
Patience has been the word of the week
Life hasn't been kind to me and rough lately
Patience has been the word of the week
I'm still missing
But patience has been the word of the week
ja
happy hippity holidays!!!!
Patience has been the word of the week.
Words have been piercing and hurting at times
But patience still resides in me
Patience has been the word of the week
I'm happy but i'm still missing
Patience has been the word of the week
I wish i could go out there and spend freely like many but boss still hasnt call
Patience has been the word of the week
Life hasn't been kind to me and rough lately
Patience has been the word of the week
I'm still missing
But patience has been the word of the week
ja
happy hippity holidays!!!!
Sunday, December 18, 2005
Happy Thoughts
1. Theatre
2. Movie
3. River
4. Jacket
5. Esplanade
6. 50 cents
7. Bus stop
8. Treasure
9. Jacket
10. Lego
wrods cna nveer epresxs waht i flee
ja
as i stare at a calla lily, happy thoughts appear aplenty.
2. Movie
3. River
4. Jacket
5. Esplanade
6. 50 cents
7. Bus stop
8. Treasure
9. Jacket
10. Lego
wrods cna nveer epresxs waht i flee
ja
as i stare at a calla lily, happy thoughts appear aplenty.
Missing
its been quiet lately. don't like it. apart from jamming and playing soccer, nothing much happened. taking the exam is really stressful. i dont want to take it now if i can. but what can i do. i'd rather take it later and spend the free time as much as possible.
ja
time isn't running out. we juz think it is
ja
time isn't running out. we juz think it is
Thursday, December 15, 2005
Death
i swear. i nearly died on the road. 2 incoming lorries were charging towards me from my blindsight. this is all because of inconsiderate drivers who stops at the middle of the junction. it was up to HIM to say whether my time was up. Luckily, you guys are still reading this entry.
This is the second time that i nearly died. God still loves me and wants me to carry on with life. there is a purpose for me in this world and i think i need to appreciate life more and help others who need it more than me.
For me, life wouldn't change for us until personal like were to happen to our lives and we begin to reflect on how fruitful our lives have been.
ja
loving all who have been loving me all this while
This is the second time that i nearly died. God still loves me and wants me to carry on with life. there is a purpose for me in this world and i think i need to appreciate life more and help others who need it more than me.
For me, life wouldn't change for us until personal like were to happen to our lives and we begin to reflect on how fruitful our lives have been.
ja
loving all who have been loving me all this while
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
Randomness
i've been tagged. doing this for nad.
Rules of the game:
1. Post 5 weird/random stuff abt yourself
2. At the end, list the names of 5 ppl who you want next to this and leave a comment "YOU ARE TAGGED" in their blogs and tell them to read your blog for rules!
So here's 5 really, really weird/random stuffs:
1. i hate ants. they've bitten my ass, arms, legs, knees when i'm least expected. you think they are small but NO!!! Try looking at them in LARGE numbers! sharp fangs, especially those african red ants. -shivers-
2. i don't smoke, drink nor dye my hair. I have friends who do but i just don't feel da need to do so.
3. i'm bad wif numbers...haiz... still trying my best to work on it. when you are at a table wif me and you guys are paying for dinner, don't pass da collected money to me because i will just be confused and donno how much to return to each person. i guess that's why i'm not cut out to be an accountant. if any company were to hire me, thats it, bankrupt. lol.
4. i can sleep anywhere. standing, sitting, on hard ground, soft ground, when it rains, when it shines, when there's noise around me. i have that "sleep mode". not many can wake me up.
5. i treasure every single day. i treasure the people who loves me, who cares for me no matter what happens. it takes a lot for a person to make me angry because i don't find it necessary to make myself miserable unless that person is too dear for me.
these are just random thins about me. randomness has taken over my motto in life. the scent still lingers even when its not there and i'm a positive thinker.
p.s. help the needy please. even when you can't contribute, pray for them so that they would receive more from others than what you could have given to them. life is too short to not make others happy. making people happy makes me happy.
ja
positive
Rules of the game:
1. Post 5 weird/random stuff abt yourself
2. At the end, list the names of 5 ppl who you want next to this and leave a comment "YOU ARE TAGGED" in their blogs and tell them to read your blog for rules!
So here's 5 really, really weird/random stuffs:
1. i hate ants. they've bitten my ass, arms, legs, knees when i'm least expected. you think they are small but NO!!! Try looking at them in LARGE numbers! sharp fangs, especially those african red ants. -shivers-
2. i don't smoke, drink nor dye my hair. I have friends who do but i just don't feel da need to do so.
3. i'm bad wif numbers...haiz... still trying my best to work on it. when you are at a table wif me and you guys are paying for dinner, don't pass da collected money to me because i will just be confused and donno how much to return to each person. i guess that's why i'm not cut out to be an accountant. if any company were to hire me, thats it, bankrupt. lol.
4. i can sleep anywhere. standing, sitting, on hard ground, soft ground, when it rains, when it shines, when there's noise around me. i have that "sleep mode". not many can wake me up.
5. i treasure every single day. i treasure the people who loves me, who cares for me no matter what happens. it takes a lot for a person to make me angry because i don't find it necessary to make myself miserable unless that person is too dear for me.
these are just random thins about me. randomness has taken over my motto in life. the scent still lingers even when its not there and i'm a positive thinker.
p.s. help the needy please. even when you can't contribute, pray for them so that they would receive more from others than what you could have given to them. life is too short to not make others happy. making people happy makes me happy.
ja
positive
Chicken Big
I ate 1 whole chicken juz now. So happy! Finger lickin good if you know what i mean. i'm taking deep breaths nowadays. The body's not feelin too good. This week is learning week for me. I learnt new stuff. :D
1. somebody had explained to me in a very simple manner why there is lightning
2. somebody had explained to me in a very simple manner why there is thunder
3. i can push myself to do ANYTHING I WANT if i set my mind to it
4. i still have the never give up attitude in me (the cycling trip was a good testament)
5. i learnt sign languages. i learnt the word "take care" today
6. i learnt to value the things that should be treasured before anything happens
7. i learnt to accept my shortcomings and improve to be better
ja
i lost a jacket and i thought my confidence is gone
i got one and i gained it back
1. somebody had explained to me in a very simple manner why there is lightning
2. somebody had explained to me in a very simple manner why there is thunder
3. i can push myself to do ANYTHING I WANT if i set my mind to it
4. i still have the never give up attitude in me (the cycling trip was a good testament)
5. i learnt sign languages. i learnt the word "take care" today
6. i learnt to value the things that should be treasured before anything happens
7. i learnt to accept my shortcomings and improve to be better
ja
i lost a jacket and i thought my confidence is gone
i got one and i gained it back
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
The answers to the many perhaps
I can understand
But I do
I'm trying to improve
Well now i noe
Sorry bout that. Thought the issue was over.
there isn't much in my head. just minor confusions loitering around.
I guess so
Yes, people are different. But people can change.
Maybe
Being late has never been an issue. I just take it you have important stuff to finish first.
I never want to be become a ninja
Maybe.
What I cannot see, hear or feel, I cannot tell. and i agree.
Perhaps
ja
pleasantly surprised - again...
But I do
I'm trying to improve
Well now i noe
Sorry bout that. Thought the issue was over.
there isn't much in my head. just minor confusions loitering around.
I guess so
Yes, people are different. But people can change.
Maybe
Being late has never been an issue. I just take it you have important stuff to finish first.
I never want to be become a ninja
Maybe.
What I cannot see, hear or feel, I cannot tell. and i agree.
Perhaps
ja
pleasantly surprised - again...
Monday, December 12, 2005
All we need is just the first foot forward
I just came back from a 16 hour round island cycling trip with my bestie, Shaiful. The beauty of the trip was, it was all UNPLANNED. Impromptu. I suggested there and then when we met up for a short dinner and i told him, "Pol! Let's go cycling. Right now. Round island. Just like what we used to 7 years ago". And we did. Just like that. Random activities that just make you remember the good old days. I'll never forget yesterday's trip. Never. Talking bout how long we've been friends, talked about life, future, problems and shared jokes and happiness that only both of us can understand. It's hard to find a great friend who's always there in times of distress and need. Thanks bro. This entry is for ya.
The main essence of this entry is about taking the first few steps that would will not allow you to turn back or procrastinate on a certain projet. N.A.T.O. no action talk only. For example, you've always been talking about going to Thailand for the full moon party. Most would just leave the conversation as it is. Unless one of them initiate and start to collect money to pay for the airfare, the trip won't happen. Once you've passed the money, then only will that brain of yours start to think of what to do next and plan.
The trip from my house to Shaiful's house already tested my mental endurance. There was no way i'm gonna turn back cause i have to go back while Shaiful will jus stay at home if we decided to cancel da trip. And so we set off the same trip we did 7 years back.
The slopes at Upper Thomson and Far East Plaza nearly killed us. Crying in my head while the lactic acid accumulated in my thighs. But not giving up was juz the motto of da trip and my motto in life. If you cannot run, jog. Just DONT stop moving.
Places we passed by.
1. Marsiling
2. Sembawang
3. Yishun
4. Upper Thomson
5. Caldecott Hill
6. Novena Square
7. Orchard Road
8. SMU
9. Esplanade
10.Bugis
11.Arab Street
12.Kallang Road
13.Geylang Lorongs
14.Aljunied Road
15.Paya Lebar Road
16.Eunos Road
17.Still Road
18.Marine Crescent
19.East COAST PArK!
20.Ubi Ave
21.Hougang
22.Ang Mo Kio
23.Anderson SECONDArY!!!
24.Anderson JC
25.Khatib
26.Yishun
27.Sembawang
28.Marsiling (HOME!!!)
Started at 11pm ended at 6pm
Lots of photos were taken. I licked on a GIGaNTIC artificial lollipop and did some crazy stuff along the way so that i'll remember the day i spend quality time wif my bestie. This is to you bro. CHeers to our friendship and may more impromptu stuff come along our way.
ja
16 hours
The main essence of this entry is about taking the first few steps that would will not allow you to turn back or procrastinate on a certain projet. N.A.T.O. no action talk only. For example, you've always been talking about going to Thailand for the full moon party. Most would just leave the conversation as it is. Unless one of them initiate and start to collect money to pay for the airfare, the trip won't happen. Once you've passed the money, then only will that brain of yours start to think of what to do next and plan.
The trip from my house to Shaiful's house already tested my mental endurance. There was no way i'm gonna turn back cause i have to go back while Shaiful will jus stay at home if we decided to cancel da trip. And so we set off the same trip we did 7 years back.
The slopes at Upper Thomson and Far East Plaza nearly killed us. Crying in my head while the lactic acid accumulated in my thighs. But not giving up was juz the motto of da trip and my motto in life. If you cannot run, jog. Just DONT stop moving.
Places we passed by.
1. Marsiling
2. Sembawang
3. Yishun
4. Upper Thomson
5. Caldecott Hill
6. Novena Square
7. Orchard Road
8. SMU
9. Esplanade
10.Bugis
11.Arab Street
12.Kallang Road
13.Geylang Lorongs
14.Aljunied Road
15.Paya Lebar Road
16.Eunos Road
17.Still Road
18.Marine Crescent
19.East COAST PArK!
20.Ubi Ave
21.Hougang
22.Ang Mo Kio
23.Anderson SECONDArY!!!
24.Anderson JC
25.Khatib
26.Yishun
27.Sembawang
28.Marsiling (HOME!!!)
Started at 11pm ended at 6pm
Lots of photos were taken. I licked on a GIGaNTIC artificial lollipop and did some crazy stuff along the way so that i'll remember the day i spend quality time wif my bestie. This is to you bro. CHeers to our friendship and may more impromptu stuff come along our way.
ja
16 hours
Friday, December 9, 2005
Shirt, pants and size 28
Today i had one of da weirdest gig ever. POSB invited us to play for their launch at Sims Ave. This are the reasons why.
1. Didnt rehearse wif jason
2. Event start at 8.30am, woke up at 7.45am, reached at 8.20am
3. Wore formal attire. Take note* this was what the organisers told me to wear* Took the wrong pants. I'm a size 32, but i wore a size 28. No choice, thats the only formal pants i have. I also told Jason to wear shirt and pants
4. Jason came. He came with jeans and short sleeves. haha. i shook my head and said, "Which part of shirt and pants you didn't understand." Things were going JUST fine. :D
5. I couldn't hit the high notes properly because of my SIZE 28!!! My stomach was squeezed in. just squeeze my ballslah!
6. The Emcee gave an honest comment. "Bro, don't mind me saying this. You gotta change your image. You look like an insurance agent." i wanted to laugh because he commented that i should wear like Jason BUT!!! go and tell that to the freaking organisers who made me wear this insurance agent clothes.
7. Me and Jason sang the longest version of I Will Survive EVER! 8 mins i think.
8. I kept on singing "Size 28" in random parts of the different songs. I was in the mood.
Thats it. Life's been great. I just need to keep my music life in check. I HAVE TO...
ja
cheeky auntie
1. Didnt rehearse wif jason
2. Event start at 8.30am, woke up at 7.45am, reached at 8.20am
3. Wore formal attire. Take note* this was what the organisers told me to wear* Took the wrong pants. I'm a size 32, but i wore a size 28. No choice, thats the only formal pants i have. I also told Jason to wear shirt and pants
4. Jason came. He came with jeans and short sleeves. haha. i shook my head and said, "Which part of shirt and pants you didn't understand." Things were going JUST fine. :D
5. I couldn't hit the high notes properly because of my SIZE 28!!! My stomach was squeezed in. just squeeze my ballslah!
6. The Emcee gave an honest comment. "Bro, don't mind me saying this. You gotta change your image. You look like an insurance agent." i wanted to laugh because he commented that i should wear like Jason BUT!!! go and tell that to the freaking organisers who made me wear this insurance agent clothes.
7. Me and Jason sang the longest version of I Will Survive EVER! 8 mins i think.
8. I kept on singing "Size 28" in random parts of the different songs. I was in the mood.
Thats it. Life's been great. I just need to keep my music life in check. I HAVE TO...
ja
cheeky auntie
Thursday, December 8, 2005
lost
i lost my jacket
i lost my limb
i lost my inspiration
i lost my strength
i lost my confidence
i lost my sanity
i will lose more
till then
ja
six pence non the richer
i lost my limb
i lost my inspiration
i lost my strength
i lost my confidence
i lost my sanity
i will lose more
till then
ja
six pence non the richer
Tuesday, December 6, 2005
NUMB3RS and River Confessions
This song speaks of my emotions and feelings. Let no language be a barrier to how it feels. Scroll below and check da scrolled up poem.
p.s. I write the best works when I am sad. That work might come soon and I don't want it to be written.
ja
i.hate.numbers.truly
p.s. I write the best works when I am sad. That work might come soon and I don't want it to be written.
ja
i.hate.numbers.truly
Sunday, December 4, 2005
Laptop, DVD and Ice Cream and MOMMIES TOO!
Today was the final shoot for my cameo in Police and Thief. Memorable experience nevertheless with all the nonsensical antiques that i pulled off in front of da camera. They have yet to tell me when it will be aired. just check this blog out for further details.
Anyways, the song You're Beautiful and You and Me have really taken an incredible form. The power of melody and lyrics and the relation that many of us would go through some form or another in our life. Watched DVD and ate icecream at the lounge. It was one of da highlights of my life. Nobody disturbing me. Watched Love actually, the uncut version. SHIOK i tell you! It was really a fitting show to say the very least. The different form of relationships; love, scandals, affairs and lust. Some form of love need not be said in a similar language for the language of love is just through responsible actions. I nver believe that saying I love you is enough. It's pointless if its not backed up by responsible actions to show how much you care for that person. And how its not as easy as getting on a school bus and getting off a certain destination. You're riding a bus that needs you to be in the driving seat. Drive to where? i dunno. go figures. You drive it.
i dont want to write no more.
ja
10 mins and i still can't bear
Anyways, the song You're Beautiful and You and Me have really taken an incredible form. The power of melody and lyrics and the relation that many of us would go through some form or another in our life. Watched DVD and ate icecream at the lounge. It was one of da highlights of my life. Nobody disturbing me. Watched Love actually, the uncut version. SHIOK i tell you! It was really a fitting show to say the very least. The different form of relationships; love, scandals, affairs and lust. Some form of love need not be said in a similar language for the language of love is just through responsible actions. I nver believe that saying I love you is enough. It's pointless if its not backed up by responsible actions to show how much you care for that person. And how its not as easy as getting on a school bus and getting off a certain destination. You're riding a bus that needs you to be in the driving seat. Drive to where? i dunno. go figures. You drive it.
i dont want to write no more.
ja
10 mins and i still can't bear
Thursday, December 1, 2005
Young and Dangerous
I don't know how many of you out there have done competitive sports before. For those who have, you would really know the meaning of winning and defeat, underdogs and favourites.
I was switching channels and happened to see the Sea Games being televised live. At that moment, I saw this 14 year old gymnast by the name of Nicole Tay Xi Hu, crying and clutching her ribs. Later then I realise that she had fallen from the beam while trying to execute a backflip. I swear, it was painful just looking at her fall and her ribs hitting the beam. She was the favourites to win it but luck was not on her side. Every other athletes would have certainly felt down after a devastating fall. She could have felt demoralised and want to give up there and then. All the hardwork, sweat, dedication, down the drain.
But that was not the main reason why I was really proud of her.
Later in the hour, she was on the centre floor doing freestyle gymnastics. And she won gold, beating the favourites. A 14 year old girl competing in a sport that was never dominated by Singapore and the last time Singapore won any medal was 20 years back. That gut and determination was just inspirational to me. Remember, she is only 14. That kind of mental drive and motivation is just difficult to inculcate and develop. And when the National Anthem was being played loud and echoed through the sports hall, my heart just went for her and how deserving the medal that she won.
She reminded me of the time where I had the chance to represent Singapore in the SEA games. I have dreamt of hearing the national anthem being played as I firmly clutch my gold medal for the nation. It's really a shitty feeling to have dominated the sport that you are good in and you just can't represent the nation because of stupid politics. STUPID politics. Sometimes I just feel sad for not being able to contribute to the nation when back then I really knew I could. It was never about the limelight or fame. It was more about bringing Singapore's name up there and making my family and friends proud.
Well, even if I can't represent Singapore, the least I could do is give my moral support to the people who have sacrificed their time and personal life to bring glory to Singapore. This entry is for Nicole.
May the Singapore team bring more glory to the nation.
ja
painful memories
I was switching channels and happened to see the Sea Games being televised live. At that moment, I saw this 14 year old gymnast by the name of Nicole Tay Xi Hu, crying and clutching her ribs. Later then I realise that she had fallen from the beam while trying to execute a backflip. I swear, it was painful just looking at her fall and her ribs hitting the beam. She was the favourites to win it but luck was not on her side. Every other athletes would have certainly felt down after a devastating fall. She could have felt demoralised and want to give up there and then. All the hardwork, sweat, dedication, down the drain.
But that was not the main reason why I was really proud of her.
Later in the hour, she was on the centre floor doing freestyle gymnastics. And she won gold, beating the favourites. A 14 year old girl competing in a sport that was never dominated by Singapore and the last time Singapore won any medal was 20 years back. That gut and determination was just inspirational to me. Remember, she is only 14. That kind of mental drive and motivation is just difficult to inculcate and develop. And when the National Anthem was being played loud and echoed through the sports hall, my heart just went for her and how deserving the medal that she won.
She reminded me of the time where I had the chance to represent Singapore in the SEA games. I have dreamt of hearing the national anthem being played as I firmly clutch my gold medal for the nation. It's really a shitty feeling to have dominated the sport that you are good in and you just can't represent the nation because of stupid politics. STUPID politics. Sometimes I just feel sad for not being able to contribute to the nation when back then I really knew I could. It was never about the limelight or fame. It was more about bringing Singapore's name up there and making my family and friends proud.
Well, even if I can't represent Singapore, the least I could do is give my moral support to the people who have sacrificed their time and personal life to bring glory to Singapore. This entry is for Nicole.
May the Singapore team bring more glory to the nation.
ja
painful memories
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