Wait For Me (Latest Original Song)

Wait For Me

I know you've gone away
To start another life
I'd never thought it'd be this hard

I'll bend down on my knees
And pray for signs above
For us to meet again

I'll be sitting by the phone
Waiting for your call
And I'll be sitting all alone
In this cold dining hall

Cause no matter how I tried
And the tears that I cried
They can never bring you home to me

But will you wait for me
Through this test of time
Will you wait for me
Tonight
Will you give another chance
Even though we're far apart
To finish what we start
That night

We have faced the stormy weather
And been through the cold
The only thing that kept us warm
Is the love that we hold

I'm trying all I can
To prove myself to you
That I can be your best

Cause it's all about fighting
For what you believe in
I hope that you remember
The reasons for this love

I know that thing were tough
Back when we're together
But we showed them what our love
Is made of

So will you wait for me
Through this test of time
Will you wait for me
Tonight
Will you give another chance
Even though we're far apart
To finish what we start that night...

London

The past week has been nothing short of mixed emotions. Everything was just too surreal and for once, I feel that nothing else around me matters anymore and that is great.

I'm claiming independence from society for this short moment, while channeling what is available to write as much as I can.

Singing Yellow can never be the same again and to walk in London just now has never been as fun as before.

The time is here and I am contented. Let's go out full force.

jamiel
The Rockstar Lullaby

Acidity in Coffee

We might have passed by but not realized
Standing at the same junction you and I
Watching cars pass us by
But the streets remaining the same

We may have thought about you and I
Though we have never met before
Till then you and I
Will only have our deepest desires to ourselves

Happy for others, holding hands and walking down the street
With nothing but smiles and glee
What we have is nothing but time
Waiting for us to pass by again

This time we'll collide
With a pain on my nose
Only then I will remember your name and face
As the girl that was brought by fate
Realizing that the pain was worth the wait

jamiel
spasibo

I still love black and white and no one can change that

Living with a dog is just plain crazy. Pikey doesn't bite nor does he lick. It just gets a little tricky when I'm moving around the house. The couple just can't possibly lock the dog out for me throughout my stay here. They keep their BIG dog outside though. Whenever he gets close to me, I'll just tell him, "Pikey! NO! Pikey! Sit!" and he'll sit. Amazing what TV teaches me.

Spent lots of my time yesterday just moving around Melbourne City and exploring it on my own. It's kinda challenging to move around the city without knowing where to go. I mean, you wanna see great places but you need to know the right people to show the right places. Most of my time was spent pampering my tummy. I stop whenever I'm hungry and eat whatever looks good. Had plenty of sandwiches and burritos. I just could not fill them up anymore. The highlight of the day would certainly be my trip to the Turkish Cafe.

It was already mid-day and I was just tired from all the walking. Finding a Halal stall was already daunting enough though not impossible. I stumbled upon this kebab shop that something what Rashid recommended. So I went in and ordered what seemed to be a reasonable portion from the picture that I see. Instead, they gave me a large portion of their kebab plate with rice and I ended up sleeping halfway through the meal because it started to get humid and I was just sleepy. Literally, I leaned my head towards the wall and just sleep for a good half and hour. Doubt any of the staff has ever seen this phenomena before. I finally woke up when I glanced at the clock and the old Turkish staff greeted good morning to me. Lol. What can I say, I just greeted back and continued with my half finished food. The couple back home just couldn't believed I slept at the cafe. Well guys, that's just the tip of the iceberg.

Walked around more and just continued taking shots and videos when I saw a band getting ready to play their set by the roadside. The band Bonjah played roots and blues music. It was quite refreshing to listen to their music and decided to grab their EP. I rarely grab any form of CD unless that band is really really good. Well I guess, in cases where I can't find them on Limewire, it's be best to grab a CD. =D

Moving on, Aussie people are just the friendliest people I've ever met. They always start their conversations with, "How are you mate? How's your day so far? How have you been travelling?" This is just basic courtesy that we should try and follow in our daily life. It doesn't hurt to ask somebody how their day went. But yeah, loving it here so far. I hope I could actually stay here longer though, there's just so much to be explored. Who knows, I might just move here and do something. It's just amazing.

There are a few words to describe Melbourne and when I describe something, it doesn't show the surface. I go deep. Let's save that for tomorrow perhaps. I'm just gonna sleep over it and just huddle underneath my blanket and hope that tomorrow's weather doesn't get freezing cold like yesterday. Lovely.

jamiel
lovely

My Music Is My Food

Finally in Melbourne. Got a rude awakening from the whether though. A cool 10 degrees. I nearly got stopped by the quarantine officer. My advice, if you are carrying any food on board and want don't want to embarrassed by the officer, throw those epok-epok away.

I'm just chillin at the couple's house, wearing my socks and keeping my toes really really warm. This kampung boy ain't that good with the cold.

I totally dig Melbourne. Laid back, great food, fish and chips, greener nature and of course, finding my identity in music. I finally know what I want in my music, no matter what genre I write in.

Texture. It's all about texture. I am a man of texture. If you can figure that out, then, lucky you. Since I'm in the studios by next week, I need to edit the arrangements and put some textures in.

I'm the first to say. I put textures in my music.

jamiel
eating cheesecakes with my toes in my socks

The Rockstar Lullaby

This is for those who have dreams,

"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place."

jamiel
the greatest revenge is to accomplish what others say you cannot do.

FAITH

Life without purpose is life without meaning. Life without meaning is life without hope. Everybody has a dream, to excel in something you're really good at. Live life for life is short. All we have is today to work on because we won't know what tomorrow will be for us.

Everybody chases the monetary prize to survive but don't let it be your main purpose in life unless that is your true sole goal in life; to be a money chaser. But certainly, we grow up not being driven by money. Some of us at a certain stage of our lives, wanted to be a dancer, ballerina, singer, artist or even traveler. Don't wait till you know that you are going to die tomorrow before embarking on that historic milestones. Have milestones.

A man without vision dies. Have vision. Have a purpose. Encourage one another to chase each other's dreams. The glass is always half full. Always remember that. We have a choice to lean towards a positive perspective. You choose to become or do anything today. Take those small steps towards your goal. Nothing is impossible. Have faith and be strong. Keep your objectives in track because most of us would have encountered people who discourage or don't believe in our dreams. We often have to fight our own battles because nobody can ever understand our own life challenges. Just because we fail, that does not mean that we fail to achieve our end objective. It is still there. We just did not pass the first level or step. When we fail, just get up and fight again. Life is all about fighting and not giving. It's either you stop the fight or carry on fighting stronger than ever before.

Some people take lesser steps to reach that end goal while others take many small steps but don't they reach their end objectives too? Everybody has different paths to follow and take. Let others take the bus ride first. We'll take next same bus. I'm more happy to ride my Vespa and ride in style to my final destination instead of taking a faster, leaner, fiercer bike. At the end of the day, we ALL can reach the same destination.

Believe.

jamiel
Full Assurance In The Heart

Arms Wide Open

I have been feeling a lil burnt out lately. It's really, really hard, holding a day job and trying to clear as much as I can so that I can find time to play and practice my music. At the back of my mind, I feel that time might be running out for me in music but somehow, God gives me a lil bit more time and space to allow me to continue running towards my dream.

Soon, I will be running off to Melbourne to sing for a wedding. Just yesterday, an opportunity came and I might be singing for a wedding in Brunei. That sounds like a great chance indeed.



I'm really burnt out. I want to go out but I feel that sitting at home, with nobody disturbing my time-out would be a better idea; just drinking coffee and watching a marathon of FRIENDS and Oprah.

I met up with a investment director from Dubai and we had eggs and toast over breakfast. He asked lots of questions about my background and strengths and advised me that the corporate world is not suitable for me. Why bother he said when at the end of the day, I will feel frustrated and not enjoy the job. When you do something that you like, the output will exponentiate more than doing something that you do not enjoy. I believe I still have more left in me in music and songwriting.

It's not over yet. There's still more to be done and I will certainly make news somewhere, somehow. This boy will live his dream.

I just need to hold on to a hand for now.

ja
if it's mine, it's mine

Living It

If you guys are keen on listening to more from me, please subscribe to The Rockstar Lullaby's channel below. =) it'll update you on any new songs that i recorded and sang.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qlKP29UrCs8

love you guys. take care.

jamiel
mwah

I Own This Name

I found a new name for a my next band. I think if i form a duo or another rock band anywhere, I shall use it. Let me present to you.

The Crowning Glory

jamiel
look at my crowning jewels

Constant

This song that I covered will certainly be a hot song on the radios anytime soon. SO! Before it does, I reckon doing a cover on it would make me one of the pioneers singing this great song.

Click on the link on the right. If you want a copy, mail me. Tag me on the board first.

Take care and Selamat Hari Raya to all. Happy holidays.

jamiel
love remains in me

Reflections

Finally, after to close to a year, I finally had a proper, decent conversation with somebody. Everybody goes through a lot in life but the challenges one person goes through might not be the same as for the other. Everything is a matter of perspective. Just because somebody is sweet looking or beautiful, that would mean she gets the best in life. There would be challenges that surrounds it too.

From the surface, we see a calm and quiet figure but behind the curtains actually lies a life battle. Most of us got it lucky to actually taste a full education. Some of my clients does not even finish primary school. One that I know of, battles day in and out to find ways to continue school and education. As I had mentioned before, let others take the bus ride first, because you know what? We will take the next one and at the end of the day, everybody reaches the same happy destination.

It has been a year since I last felt this joyful and sudden burst of energy and excitement. It's been a while. Thank you.

jamiel
MiRRor

The Rockstar Lullaby Akustika

Finally, I'm on national radio! It was certainly one hell of a fun ride getting interviewed by Harry and being able to play on Power 98 FM.

Initially I had problems choosing songs to play on air. I wanna do rock and stuff but when Harry said to keep the level chill and relax, I had to alter some of the list. It was certainly a fun night talking about music and how music affects people; from the way we feel, we perceive and emote. It's just a language by itself. And I just had to play The Last Song on air. Not many have heard this but, listen to the show and you'll understand why.

And for the FIRST TIME, I GET TO PLAY MY ORIGINALS ON AiR!!!

Let me count how many people will be tuning in.. hmm... MILLIONSSS GAZILLLIONS PILLLIONNNNNS!!!!

Whatever the outcome is, I just can't wait to hear my voice on radio and just grin the night away.

Thanks to Harry for googling me online and messaging me on Facebook. Man... The power of social network interface.

This is Harry, the charismatic Filipino DJ.



Final words,



Thanks to those who tuned in to Power 98 and listened to my one hour of emotional Nirvana.

jamiel
power mower tower shower flower

Ketoprak

Wan finally reached home after his honeymoon from Bali I think. I wanna go there one day.

jamiel
love avril with all my heart

My Dream

All a Singapore boy wants is a chance to play in the snow....

jamiel
please?

Chok dee

there are no lucky people in life, but people that work hard to be lucky.

jamiel
read it over and over again

It's the next migration

I'm certainly feeling quite surreal right now... My premonition is coming through. Alhamdulillah. Please, make it happen.

jamiel
joining Carrie and Adri hopefully

Syariah Law

The one band that's equivalent to Aerosmith in my book. Respect. Watch the movie if you can. Worth the time. =)

jamiel
moving on

Why do they call it French Fries?

Thanks to Kenneth for grabbing this wonderful shot during Tapestry. I have always been a great fan of black and white, even when I explore photography with my trusty Ixus 65. It brings out a certain character in the shots itself that colours just cannot replicate. There is a sense of freedom and independence to it because everything else is just filtered out.

I need to start filtering out certain issues myself. Perhaps, putting a timeline would be good idea. In a short span of 1 month, so many opportunities were thrown at me but I gotta be careful with what is being put on my plate. Putting great tasting mushroom soup together with spicy mee goreng on your existing plate may not sound like a good idea. You get what I mean?

jamiel
i feel like eating chicken cutlet now

The Rockstar Lullaby

There has been pleasant surprises this week, including an invitation to sing for a wedding in Dubai, but nothing compared to this one. Power 98 actually contacted me through Facebook (can you believe it?) and invited me to perform on their show. If all goes well, I'll be on radio next week.

They want me to sing a few covers and originals too. Any suggestions?

jamiel
join the dots and see the flow

Take A Bow

Tapestry on the whole was a success. Thank you for all who came and supported the event. May your contributions be stepping stones to better things that might come your way.

For any feedbacks, please just tag on the board on the right. =D i might have made new friends through my shameless advertisements.

Take care and have a good week ahead. I have a whole load of items lining up this week.

jamiel
take a bow

Baris Sediaaaaaaa!

Updates:

The Rockstar Lullaby will be performing at the following venues for charity,

Saturday, 16th August 2008
Heeren: 1.30-2.00 PM

Sunday, 17th August 2008
VivoCity: 6.00-6.30 PM


Royale will be performing on

Sunday, 17th August 2008
Central, The Atrium: 8.30pm - 9.00pm

Rest assure that I will scream at the top of my lungs and say
"WHAT'S GOING ON!!!!"

jamiel
reserving the nation, time and time again

Misery At Stung Meanchey

Misery At Stung Meanchey on Flickr - Photo Sharing!

Too heart wrenching to witness such agony. Where one tears for having too much chilli in ones soup, another tears for a mouthful of scraps.

Stung Meanchey, Cambodia.

jamiel
i need to witness this for myself

It's not weird, it's called being creative.

It's really nice to have my trusted buddy looking over my shoulder all the time. It might sound a little odd but when Ducky was not sitting at where he always use to in the morning, I panicked. I felt as if I had lost some part of my soul.

I guess many would have their own item of endearment. For me, this yellow plush toy has always been there for me ever since I was living alone in Thailand. As much as I had wished I could share my adventure with my best friend, Ducky was the closest thing I had to share my joy in a foreign land.

There are a few things in my life that I will certaily feel at lost if it's not there with me anymore and Ducky is just one of them.

Some of us have a certain item that we consider as a good luck charm. Some might not wash and wear the same socks or undies because everytime they wear them, they would win the game. As for me, it's not about luck. It's about self belief and empowerment. Knowing that no matter how hard and stressful things can get, all I have to do, is to look at this yellow novelty and give it a peck on its beak and I will have this sudden surge of energy all over again, all motivated and strengthened to absorb anything that comes my way. Because I know, if my friends are here beside me, they would exude the same motivation and drive into me.

jamiel
my name is beautiful. moving on.

Twins

When you see House and Prison Break, you see me. Figure it out.

jamiel
firehouse

Flying Saucer

Firsrt and foremost, congrats to all the newly-weds, Huda and Ridzwan and also my cousin Sikandar. Pardon the absence for I was away during your special day.

What's the deal with me and chappatis? Been constantly craving for them ever since Shirley mentioned about her dietician friend who did not approve of her patient of having more than 2. What happened? The patient asked, "Have you seen a flying saucer before?" and he frisbeed his ceramic plate across into the opposite ward. People started asking for a change in ward right after that.

Anyways, back to me. Does anybody know of any mama shop that sells them cheap? I mean, Al Amin is really overpriced and over rated. The wet market near my area used to have but I think they're already closed.

So if any of you guys know of any places, pleaseeeeeeeeeeee post it on the tag board. Thanksssssssssssssssssssssssssssss. Mwah.

jamiel
white bored

My baby

Chinook's finally coming home!

jamiel
pushing one another by the road shoulders

Paper plane

Smile more. =)

jamiel
losing the voice

Near Death Experience

Greetings from Soekarno Airport! Guess what? I managed to find a Wi-Fi spot at the corner of a cafe. I'm blogging from my iTouch and it really saved the hassle of a laptop. I cannot help myself but I feel like Adri right now, blogging away from very peculiar locations. That is how globalised we are, the world shrinking in every counting second.

My heart nearly burst when the Air Asia counter officer told me that we cannot board the plane and we will miss it. We had close to $1000 worth of music equipment on board and bound for Jakarta. Thank god we were in Batam and managed to persuade the officer to let us in. I've never run so fast in my whole life before. Random bags were danggling from my shoulders and hands. I don't want to chase another plane again.

Determination is a panacea for success. But chasing planes? That is just insane.
jamiel
wearing a helmet when showering

Light and easy

I have discovered the best social tool ever. I even tried googling it and it did not come out.

jamiel

Indie Air

You know what... I'm finally feeling my nerves tingling thinking about opening for Gigi. I was just looking through some old photos of me on a plane and that feeling of excitement venturing into unchartered water reignites again.

My route towards what I aim to be may not be a conventional one. It has certainly been a long and unorthodox path. Having to battle seasickness, running and catching trains, unexpected visits and dreams may prove to be a never ending collection towards that forbidden dream. Everybody carves their own way. If mine works, it is because it might only be applicable to me. Fate differs for everybody.

Trade offs? Plenty. But who cares. The thing is, not many people are able to hit a right note with me when it comes to giving advices. Sometimes, they give without me asking and given at untimely hours and venue. I have a few that I keep dearly stitched in my mentality. I cannot share them unless I meet someone similar because not many can digest the same views or mentality.

I'm leaving soon. There were some disruptions in our flight schedule but I hope Mark can make it on time. It is now all up to fate.
There are things that we can control and they are called indigenous factors e.g. booking of flight schedules and when to eat.
Those that we cannot are called exogenous and the situation with our flight now lies on the exogenous spectrum. Happening isn't it. But what is there to tell without such challenges or experiences. But for now, I just do not want to stay at the airport for the night. I'd compromise for my guitar and ducky who is following me.

Time to fight another day.

jamiel
social worker by day, rockstar for life

Success is meant to be shared. Don't hog it.

"It's ok if others are taking the ride first. You just wait for the next bus and don't forget to board it."
jamiel

Envelope me and Miel me

People age but the train rides always remain the same.

Whenever the train stops at Khatib, I will always remember how Shaiful and I would share one bicycle, I would cycle while he would do the steering.

Everytime, the train stops at Ang Mo Kio, it would remind me of the time Wan told me about the band Naked and how it sounded dumb to me back then.

Whenever the train stops at Toa Payoh, it would remind me of the time I used to be really rebellious back in first three months of college.

And that train stretch, between Khatib and Yio Chu Kang, would forever etch in my mind as the longest single train ride in between two stations when I'm going to school. I still remember this couple from Yio Chu Kang Sec. They look good together but they seem unhappy.

And when I visit my old house back in Yishun, I'd stare at my old unit from the car park and a whole database of 10 year history will flood the mind; from school to soccer and how I develop my strong sense of hearing. That playground used to be my haven but with no friends, I'd play alone. My only friend would be my brother and our weekend video game rendezvous.

How people age
Yet, the rides remain the same.

jamiel
a few more days to Gigi's opening

Road Trip to Solo first

Cheesecakes and Vespas are two very similar items. They both need to be savored slowly and with attention. You cannot just eat it or ride it just for the sake of it. I really miss Chinook and really need to learn more about how to troubleshoot my bike. I cannot depend on pushing it down a slope everytime it does not want to start.

It has been really tough preparing for Gigi's event. Going through the process of rehearsals and finishing up the latest song has really drained me quite a bit. It eases me to know that I have professionals on board who will be performing with me on the night itself. The only tricky part lies in the fact that only 3 will be constantly jamming in Singapore and 2 will be rehearsing among themselves in Indonesia.

Aiyah, who cares. I'm still abiding by my own quote, "A true winner will remain hard-headed and always wear a helmet if you're heading for a head-on collision." I hope my collision will be a soft one, as soft as a million feathered filled pillows!

jamiel
chiongggggggggggggggglahhhhhhhhh

July with Gigi

all we have is faith and belief

jamiel
whatever happens, i'm heading for a head on collision

Loving what's coming ahead

I'm only into textures.

jamiel
feel mine

Grand Daddy Of All Time

Who were there when 7TD performed for SMU's Grand Opening? Claim your spot on the tag board on the right. I know that was one night to remember!

jamiel
at least when I die, you have the videos to watch me over and over again.

Let's go to the park

I was in the office and my pantat went poot poot poooooOOooot.

jamiel
still in the office at 8pm.

Logic

Does anybody know why do guys like to spit at the urinal when they pee?

I'd give 82726275 brownies points for the one who can guess it correct.

jamiel
pissed

Insincerity at its best

So here's the deal. People are constantly being persuaded to buy stuff that they cannot afford. On top of that, I'm very sad to see even advertisements from Suria, asking its viewers to buy first and pay later. You're not helping the community for goodness sake. Bad enough, my own community has its share of problems, mainly divorce rates, children born out of wedlock and drug abuse. Of course they don't represent the bulk of the community but even if it is not so, these are still critical issues that needs to be addressed and tackled.

Buy first pay later. It is a great selling scheme to entice consumers who THINK they can pay for tour packages or even gold and jewelries with installment plans. I try to create simple principles of life; if you cannot afford, don't buy. Don't owe people money if you can because you can never wake up feeling good when you know you have to pay off a certain debt. And mind you, sometimes, when we think we can pay off these debts, the unexpected can happen. You might need to usage your savings for any rainy days. So now, what happen to your debts?

I'm not here to make choices for people nor am I enforcing one to conform to my way of thinking. It's just a general rule and I guess most would agree. If you can't afford, don't buy. And please, for you business people outside, don't scam my community into another big hole. We need to start educating on savings not spending.

jamiel
pissed off

Sweetness

How much cooler can things be. My name is on the website!

http://www.peranakanplace.com/acidbar.html

jamiel
more to come

Blink blink

The movie Hansel and Gratel (Korean) was demented. Don't watch it.

Ironman. Yeah, balls of steels. Love it.

jamiel
saving up

Memories

It has been more than a year since I left Chula and Thailand. I truly miss it beyond words.

Some videos to share.











This was where I did my shopping. I miss this granny. =D



And I really miss my housekeeper. Towards the end, I told her to wait for a while because I wanted to return her the mop. But what she actually told me was that whether it was possible for her to go downstairs to lock the door first then come upstairs again. At that point in time, my understanding of Thai was still half past 6. Nevertheless, I'll post more of my past videos so that those who missed my life in 2007 can see them again.

jamiel
9207, Bangkok, Chula, Jaturapong

Suters

On the very first day, I got myself very acquainted with the office pantry. So much so, my first conversation in there was about marriage with one my new colleague. So there I was, stirring my Milo with the cleaner auntie washing the floor when my colleague said this to me.

"How old are you? Wah, 26 ah. Not bad, still young. Married already? Not yet? Ah, don't worry. You're still young. Think of how to get a 3-room flat first. Don't think about girls"

I was still stirring my Milo and nodding in acknowledgment when suddenly, the cleaner auntie said, "Here many 'Suter'."

Suter as in Suitors? I know there are many ladies in the office but I was thinking to myself, this auntie's vocab ain't that bad after all, considering the fact that she speaks Mandarin to everybody most of the time.

"Many suitors ah auntie? Lol." I laughed and she replied.

"Yeah, here many 'suters'." She bent down, opened up the cabinet.

She handed me a few packets of 'sugars' for my Milo.

I shook my head in disbelief. Lost in translation again. There goes my sweet tooth.

jamiel
eye candies

One More Please

To many, the more the merrier. More means good. But when is it ever enough for us to feel grateful for whatever God has given us.

Took the bus home the other day and I really wanted to doze off when this uncle, who sat across the aisle, began to continue his conversation.

"You cannot trust your wife. See what happened. All your money gone. That's why I tell you, you should open up your own separate account."

"Yeah, love is love I know. Eh, I got 3 wives you know. One Chinese, one Indonesian and the latest one a Filipino"

Then his other phone rang. "Eh, wait ah." He checked his phone and slid it back into his left pocket.

"Huh? Oh, aiyah, my girlfriendlah. Calling me. I don't know what she want. Eh, hold on ah"

He then took out his other ringing phone.

"Eh, where are you? Ah? Home? You sure or not? Eh, you think ah, I don't know what you're doing when I'm not home is it? Don't play around with me I tell you. I jaga you very good all this while okay. Who takes care of you? Who gives you money back to your kampung? You want me to stop all these?"

"Just because I'm not around, you can play around okay. I know where you go and stuff. I hire a detective to follow you around you know. Don't play a fool with me. Okay okay, I go first. I talk to you later."

Hung up this conversation and continued the other one.

"Hello? Ah yes yes. Aiyah, wife problem lah what else. Eh, I heard you have 2 wives is it?"

How about asking for one more and that guy on the other end of the phone can start sending some extra money into another kampung.

jamiel
Kampung Glum

Creative Seabed

One of the best video art form I've seen. This is truly a great memory for all of us.

Enjoy.



jamiel
ah, memories....

Kit Kat

Finally, 2 big breaks. 2 big gigs coming up, with the more prominent one for IndoFest this year.

Chances are, I'll be playing somewhere new Bugis every Fridays, Fish and Co every Saturday.

This Saturday, I'll be busking outside Centerpoint from 8.30 onwards till about 9.30.

Pop by. Who knows.

jamiel
here comes the sun

Of Oranges and Apples

Peel me

jamiel
i bet you can't

Soulmate

It's so easy to tear nowadays. Syltra sang a better version of this with my band at the Esplanade last January.



jamiel
keeping the faith

Mr Safe

So what happens to the so called infamous one who walks with a limp and seemed to disappear from Singapore's tightest security? Shrugs. I still cannot deal with the fact that he just POOOFED! from his cell. Doesn't make sense though it is possible if you ask me. I'm just wondering whether anybody from the government is reading my blog to find out whether they can find any info on his whereabouts. Sorry boss. Even I am clueless.

But the more I think about the impossibility of his evaporation, the more I am inclined to think that there is a conspiracy theory behind it. Go and google about it.

My hair is long and even more so my train of thoughts.

Take a look at this. I found it somewhere.

Have fun.



jamiel
ask me

Emotions

I always play this when i wake up, when the sun is setting and before i sleep. Keeps me calm.

jamiel
Mi sei mancato molto

Gerbera

Expecting a Valentine's Day entry from me? Not this year.

jamiel
You learn to love, not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly"

Piak, where are you?

I still can't get enough of this song. I can easily tear myself while singing this. Perhaps, as many of us would, we often relate songs to our experiences. Sadly enough, most of the songs that we listen are related to sad experiences. Name them. Break ups, first fights and long periods away from each other. Most of us have gone through them before.

Enough said, being a songwriter doesn't have much perks. Actually, it is quite a stressful job when more of the population are going through the process of break ups than falling in love. You need to create a song that people can relate to. Nothing too narrowed, just touching the surface and keeping things in general.

I'm still looking forward to writing my best piece yet. When? I don't know. People are beckoning for it. I can't force my ideas to come out. It has to be natural.

I'm looking for natural. Are you there?

jamiel
still smiling

This is me

Emotionless on my birthday. Just like any other birthdays before today.

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jamiel
just wanna feel happy today

Don't want to spend it alone again

Happy Birthday to me
Happy Birthday to me
Happy Birthday to me
Happy Birthday to me

jamiel
-blows invisible candle-

Syukur

Prayed in congregation 3 times yesterday. Sitting and napping at the mosque brought back a lost feeling; calmness. Knowing that it's Allah's house and I can seek his help at any moment in time. I think by fate, I met a guy who told me the 20-80 principle. Helped me a lot.

jamiel
thank you

London!!!

Apparently, this video of mine has already reached Britain. The producer of the show of Richard and Judy, wanted to showcase my video in their talkshow program. How COOOOOOOOL is that!!! I hope they fly me to Britain or something. Hey, no harm wishing for it. I just can't believe the number of hits this video has received and to know that I put this up for fun is just unbelievable.



jamiel
flyyyyyy meeee to britainnnn

Fly With Me

This week has been a week of blessings.



The Esplanade gig was a blast and I didn't expect it to be that successful. Thank you for those who came. I'm working hard to get a deal to play there again. I'd rather have a more personal and intimate gig than Baybeats.

Right after that, I felt quite drained. I don't know. Some parts of me just wanted me to stop. Stop gigging for a while and just step back. I was game to just leave it on a high note. That was until I got a call from Nora. She wanted to give me a gig that I just cannot refuse. The incentive was just too good.

What was supposed to be a normal mall gig at Novena Square 2, turned out to be a moving experience for some, including my players.

Plenty of shameless kids were dancing around in front of our stage while we perform. I LIKE!!!! Shaking those butts and hips in very off tempo rhythms and in super random directions. I can visually remember those hairless kids but one will be stuck in my mind for quite a while. She is a 7 year old angel that appeared out of nowhere with her older sister. She's diagnosed with down syndrome. But what kept me constantly smiling at her was because she was tapping her feet to mine. When the sister pointed out to her to tap her feet, I tried to catch her attention and asked her to follow mine. She did and I felt truly blessed to have performed for her. When she waved me goodbye, I stopped strumming and gave her a flying kiss instead. She pulled her sister's blouse and blushed as she made her way towards the exit. Thank you little one.

Angels by Robbie Williams seemed to tear me for some reasons I just cannot explained. I didn't realize what was going on until one lady came walking towards us and started asking Dominic, my saxaphone player, whether he was from St Patricks. She loved the song that I sang and what made me more intrigued was when she said it with her teary eyes. Just a few months ago, her 25 year old son had just passed away. He was from St Pats and a saxaphone player himself. That exact song, Angels, was played during his funeral and she said that she felt as if her son was there at the mall when I sang it. She thanked us for singing that piece.

Touching indeed and it was good to know that I've done something good with my voice.

This has truly been a roller-coaster week for me. I want to stop gigging for a while but it seems that good offers have been coming my way. Syukur. It's time for me to write my songs and find that job that has always been on my parent's mind.

jamiel
i thank you for the tears

07/08

I guess, this might be the last entry for 2007. It's been a great year for me. Out of my 25 years of existance, I've never been so alive. I found a reason to continue working hard and doing as much good as I can while I'm still on this earth.

Some have passed away, mainly my uncle and of course my bestest buddy in the world, Attan. He will always be in my heart for being the one that kept my family together. I owe him so much for that. Only God knows how I feel.

Thailand humbled me and taught me the word focus. 5 months was quite short to be honest but it's never about the place nor the length of time but more of what you did. I still remember my August till December 2006. That was when I worked my ass off for a cause, Thailand. People who've seen me in school would be able to see that I totally lacked sleep and was really thin.

I lost my step grandmother in Solo. Took care of her for a month. Never have I felt so decisive about doing something. It was all for a promise that I kept. It was solely for her.

I think above all, was to be able to meet somebody that made me smile every single day and constantly praying for her safety anywhere she goes. Literally, after every solat, there will be a small doa for her, asking Allah to protect her and keep her safe from harm. I feel motivated to help more people in life together with her and hope that better things will happen for everybody in this coming year.

Closing this year on happy tears, I bid 2007 farewell, feeling blessed and thankful while extending my heart for 2008 and feeling excited about what it's gonna bring. The number 7 truly excites me for god knows reasons.

jamiel
with faith and belief, anything is possible