thank youuuuu

i would like to thank the education system for allowing us to have music lessons back in primary school. thank you whoever the education minister was. oh btw, i love da song!!!

ja
happy mode

Feeling Hapyyy!!!

The Corp Comms test weren't as easy as I had thought. Quite challenging actually. Booooo. What a way to start the day. To make it worse, we had a boring speaker in class. He's dry. Can start a forest fire anytime I tell you. BUT!!! He made up for it by playing my favourite song, "I like to teach the world to sing" :D

i was literally dancing my way, bopping my head side to side to the song. not many followed suit. i wondered why. it aint a boring song and i badly wanted to stand on my seat and dance. i'm serious! But i guess, the prof and the class wouldn't be so inclined towards that idea. SO BORING!

i can SOOO imagine the whole class sing along to the song!

=dance around=

i like to teach the world to sing, in perfect harmony!

SING ALONG PEOPLE. :D

ja
happy!

Mr Smiley

I'm feelin a lil scared. I have this sudden impulse to feel frustrated all of a sudden. Sometimes, i wanna scream. But I have to contain and refrain myself from all this impulses. It's really irritating. I dunno whether its the accumulation of things that had happened or juz mere pressure. I think i have too many things in my head but juz that i dont have anybody to talk to at times.

The person whom I used to talk to doesnt seem inclined to have the normal conversations that we used to. That, I understand. It's fine. Whatever it is, I'm not here to be of burden to anybody. Luckily there's this blog to be my punching bag as I type away the emotions that i've felt for the past week.

I hope nobody gets hurt during this unusual period. If you did, i apologise in advance.

On a seperate note, sometimes i feel MSN isn't the best way to chat with people unless you really know that person on the other side quite well. Then again, human beings change and can be very unpredictable. You may put a smiley on the chat board but you show no emotions as you type it out. Many of us are guilty of this. An insincere smile. Perhaps, we're just getting bored of the person whom we are chatting with and the smiley that we put are mere fascade and to satisfy what the other person would want to see. Life is great. I know. I just want things to be normal and not awkward anymore. That's all.

ja
smile ja. just smile. at least try.

She's Sweet

It's difficult to see sweet girls nowadays. Beautiful ones, there are aplenty.
I was watching my favorite girl, Oprah Winfrey (yes, i do watch her show), and Michelle Williams from Brokeback Mountain appeared as a special slot because of the controversial movie. She, definitely, qualifies, to be one of the sweetest celebrity I've ever met. She's so ladylike and shuweeeeeet. Omg.... -melt-

ja
i love candy.
and cookies.
oh! and not forgetting cheesecake too.

A walk to remeber

Revisited the botanical gardens today. So many great memories of my fellow friends who always kept me company during my stint of skipping Statistics classes. Let me name them. They are, Mr Swan, Mr Duck and Mr Smelly Dove. Miss them a lot.

Had a good walk and managed to sit by the slope to see others relaxing on their rattan mats and dogs scampering around and barking at innocent young kids. Oh, talking about kids, i made them jealous today. hehe. blew soap bubbles and running around, reliving the moments of my childhood. I think many of us forget to relive our childhood. We should. Don't lose them. It's fun. I enjoyed myself.

ja
being a kid again.

This is an announcement. I'm performing for this Combined Rock Concert called, FACE OFF. A joint effort between Soundfoundry, Studio Comm and Guitarissimo.

Bands Performing

7 Till Dawn
D' Funked
Guitarissimo Band

When:
7.00pm

Where:
SMU BigSteps

ja
anything juz tag for details

Player

this is a prose called i hope it aint true

you look for gold in the faces of others
while i look for peace instead
and everytime i write your name in my head
it'll never be the same again
a dream i say
could it stay
i dunno
emotionless
till i was fed
to feel what others would
the inspiration you are and not my muse
i've said what i need
after what i've heard
and all i can say
i wrote this little prose for you
i hope it aint true

ja
fractured

Remember Us

Happened to watch this Charlize "my sexBOMB" Theron and Keanu "second to ja" Reeves movie called Sweet November. A story about a girl who didnt reveal to the guy that she had cancer until the end of the show. Great movie about how a guy has been constantly stuck in his materialistic world that he forgot that there are more to life than just money.

The one thing that i cannot forget from the movie was her final words to Keanu was "Remember us"

ja
Remember us

Longing

Note: Please put on your earphones or headphones before listening to the song so that you can hear the reverb. Thanks


I dont have to say much. They are all emotions.

Longing

Verse 1:
Everytime I close my eyes
The only thing I see
Is you...

And everytime I tried to hide
These feelings that I cant deny
Cause all I see is life with you

Prechorus:
And I don’t want to be the one
Who watch you from afar
Cause I would like to see what lies tomorrow

Chorus:
Cause I just wanna be with you
Across the ocean wide and blue
And say the words that you’ve never heard before

And I just want our love to be
Like the mountains high and free
I know that we could make it fly
If only we could give it one more try

Verse 2:
And eventhough you’re wif somebody
I know that deep that inside myself
I could really love you more

And everytime I try to hide it
All emotions that I feel inside
Just seemed to burn
I just gotta let you know
Prehcorus:

Chorus:

Outro:
Trying hard to live this dream
And holding on but it never seems
And being strong like I never did before...

ja
glassed emotions

One last cry

When i was young, i was a failure. never would i imagine myself to be in a university
When i was young, i thought i had no skills and strengths. never would i imagine myself to be a songwriter
When i was young, i thought i was helpless. never would i imagine to be able to help the unfortunate

24 years of my life that has passed by, i've seen people come and go. people fail and succeed. i learn to appreciate, to be less judgemental and to help others as much as I possibly can. Living in this world serve no purpose if we are only here to accumulate wealth only. Sure enough, we do need da money to survive and sustain ourselves till the day that we die. But seriously, sometimes, we do get caught up in our personal lives, chasing our dreams until we forget to ask our neighbours or friends how their day went. We dont have to think far sometimes because we also neglect our own family.

How many of us message our friends? How many of us would message to guys or girls on how their day went, whether they have eaten lunch or not? How often do we do so? Now apply da same questions to our own family; our parents and siblings. I have to admit that i do get caught up with my work that i dont call home whenever i need to stay over.

Imagine this, you're in a relationship and you dont msg your girlfriend or boyfriend the whole day or two. How would they feel? Now imagine our parents. How would they feel if their own son or daugthers doesn't even msg to ask on their health or whether they have eaten breakfast. It's unbelievable i tell you. The amount of SMSs we splurge on our friends is beyond the number of times we msg our parents and siblings.

Why? You ask yourself. i'm just here to remind you guys that, we should not forget to be proactive with our family members. Sometimes, all they want is just a simple message that says, "I love you. Take care"

p.s. if you're reading this, make somebody happy and drop a msg to your parents or siblings. it doesnt hurt.

ja
everybody reads my entries but doesnt leave comments. sometimes i wonder why. would love the opinion of others for a change. i hope my entries arent boring. lol.

Lookin forward

sometimes being alone is great. i miss da times backpacking alone. i miss da times partying alone. i miss the times watching movie alone. now i dont have to miss it anymore.

ja
"a picture brings a thousand emotions. your face brings peace" quote from Tony K.

Size does matter

The differece between a car launch and a truck launch. i guess the for the latter, its to reaffirmed the durability of the truck itself. I can clearly see the tagline. "We're the heavyweight champion"

ja
neo prints i wanna take

Addicted

I'm an addict.
I crave.
I know its bad.
I need to quit.
But it's just too good.
To let it go.
I need a bit.
Even a tiny bit will do me good.
I need it because of one reason.
It makes me happy.
But it turns out to be my happy misery.

ja
3rd March. My last performance

Details:
Combined Rock Concert, 7 Till Dawn, Guitarissimo Band and D'Funked
Where? Big Steps. We're gonna rock your socks off.

Failures

I've been keepin this entry under edit for the past 6 months. I think it's time to write about it because I think it is crucial.

Failures. Think. How many times have you failed before in life? Many have experienced the feeling of failure. I've failed MANY TIMES in almost every aspect of my life. Name it, i've gone through it. But the good thing about going through failures is not about the experience, it is always about building up your immune system and recovering from it.

I've seen many people cry over grades. Getting a C was like the end of the world for them. Being perfect from young and not knowing what failure is can be really dangerous. Not making mistakes is fatal to me. We are humans. We are not a perfect 10. We need to learn the ropes of life as soon as we can. We need to expect failures and get ready for it if that time were to ever come.

Failure can be a double-edged sword. You either suffer from it, get depressed, be an alcoholic and die a virgin or be stronger from it and improve your immune system so much so that when another blow comes, you know how to handle it. But I guess, for many of those who had the opportunity to know me a lil better would understand my philosophies in life; if it doesn't kill you, it'll just make you stronger. This is bullshit. If it doesn't kill you, it'll just make you suffer. Then, somebody needs to give you that extra nudge to pick yourself up and move on. If not, you'll just stay down there in that pile of mess that you are in and try to get empathy from others. Damn pathetic. Don't start shaking heads because its true and you know it. Only through your accumulated immune system will you then be able to rise up on your own without seeking help from others. I've gone through that phase. It's a painful process but it just makes you a tougher person inside.

So moral of the story? Learn to accept failures and hope through fate, you are able to learn from the failures of others and of your own self too while you're still young. Before you can be old and wise, you have to be young and stupid.

ja
i'm an addict. i need a cold turkey and quit it soon.

De Ja Vous

I donno how many have read this entry before. In my context, when i have de ja vous, it means that my life is running its natural course and whatever that had happened prior to that de ja vous was already meant to happen. i had not 1, 2 but almost 8 de ja vous within 1 week. Many would find this freaky but i juz find them normal and accepted them as part of my life because i constantly look forward to my next de ja vous but when they come in huge amounts, it can really get on your nerves! i dunno how to make out of it at times but i just treat it as a gift that god gives me. i still dont know how to use it. i can only interpret from it.

i had a few at Prof Low's house at Holland Road.
i had the most at the new Mercedes Benz showroom off Alexandra Road.

i'm livin in a fairytale right now and i know it won't happen. many juz dont know what's going on. whats the real story. and many think that all is good and happy. My life, aint, pretty. don't make a hoo haa over something that was never there or is yet there. So if people start to judge me over things that are happening or had happened or had NEVER happened, then i pity you. you're still stuck in that normal judgemental mode that EVERYBODY has. =) change for once ok? its good. at times i just dont really care about what people say but when it starts to eeeeks me out, i can get really pissed off. i have my limit and many know that my limit is far, so if i start to yell, you have really stepped my toe. so far, many came close. Don't. Please. I BEG OF YOU.

once this is done, i'm gonna lose all my inspirations. and i'll be back to square one. its hard to be naturally inspired because you dont fake the things that you say.

ja
just end this happy misery

Usher

Been working as an usher for da past 3 days. Really taxing. I was called da toilet boy by my supervisor because my role was to stand along this particular corridor and direct them to the toilet. But in actual fact, my role is redundant because there was already a stupid sign that said "Restroom Ahead". He told me that i was the human signage. @#TJ@ER. Nonsense. I basically had to that for da past 9 hours back to back until i could take it no more. I decided to wander around and help others who hasnt got the opportunity to eat yet.

Performances were held concurrently, models were doing their catwalks down the runway and ME, took off my "USHER" tag and headed straight towards the desert counter. I managed to blend in well because the rest of the guests were in black shirts! thank goodness. The strawberry cheesecake was just OMG... The chocolate moose were juz YUMMY... The chocolate cake was just DROOLING... i'm not so interested in the main course but deserts juz BLEW me away!

after work, went to ZOUK for the SINS bash. Managed to win myself a pair of LEVI's sunglasses worth 150 buckz! yay! danced the night away at Phuture to old skool retro rnb. Love it. had a great time. can't say much for today though. i feel like quitting.

ja
bottom up is my ideal way of success

In pain

My chest, feels as if my rib cage is being torn open. really painful... feels as if da bones are piercing thru my flesh. donno whether i should go and see the doctor. maybe its just for today. hope not.

btw, the above are not lyrics or literary works. its real.

ja
help

do you live in da same bubble as mine?

Took off my crown and slept wif my scooter. gd nite.

ja
livin in a fairytale bubble

How i practice my vocals and showmanship at home

1. Wake up, open iTunes, go to toilet, take toothbrush and toothpaste, brush teeth, stand in front of huge living room mirror and pretend i'm singing to a crowd of 1000 people.

2. Clean house: Go to kitchen, pick up dustpan and broom and use the broom like a mike stand.

3. Trying to perfect my mic spinning. Gotta perfect that. How? Take out the pink mini dumbell from mom's room and pretend it to be the mike. Learn how to hold it wif style and spin without it ever dropping.

4. Daydream on Chinook. She has seen me doing silly stuff most of the time.

Songs i wanna do,

Splender ~ I think god can explain
I'll Be ~ Edwin Mccrae
Disease ~ Matchbox 20
YellowCard ~ You are my only one

ja
1.15pm, gsr 3.3.

Preview

This is the preview to my latest song. It's called "Maybe I should be glad"

ja

At Last I know

This is the title to a nice song.

Now at last I know

What a fool I've been

For have lost the last love

I should ever win



Now at last I see

How my heart was blind

To the joys before me

That I left behind



When the wind was fresh

On the hills

And the stars will new in the sky

And a lock was heard in the still (?)

Where was I

Where was I



When the spring is cold

Where do robinsgo

What makes winter lonely

Now at last I know



When the wind was fresh

On the hills

And the stars will new in the sky

And a lock was heard in the still (?)

Where was I

Where was I



When the spring is cold

Where do robins go

What makes winter lonely

Now at last I know

ja
now i know why

Memories

I love smells. Different smells bring back different parts of your life back. Freshly cut grass reminds me of my childhood. Early morning I would go down to rent a computer game and the grass cutter would have mowned the field near the playground. I can still remember how my old playground looks like.

Sometimes out of nowhere, this particular scent would appear and you'd just stop dead at your tracks and a sudden shot of memories juz rushed down your head like flushing your toilet bowl. lol. weird analogy but yeah.

i love smells. the smell of curry, the smell of a baby's skin, the smell of spices. The smell of the wet market reminds me of the first time I went to the market with my granny. wahh, now memories are gushing down my head right now. lol.

remember those scents, those perfumes, those talcum powder or the smell of a clean toilet.

ja
now at last

Emoman

Da night was great. Sang a duet. Sang a solo. Saw Emix! Yay!! =dance dance= Managed to catch some of da bands playing before i had to proceed towards my project room. The 3 of us, named, Love Struck Groupie, had to finish our lit review and do the final touch ups. Saz and Steph were constantly playing emo songs until all of us nearly drowned in it. Damn fun. Love da guys. At last, found a good bunch of friends who can juz crap like theres no tomoro. Listening songs like I Live My Life For You, I'll Be, You're Beautiful had transformed us from human beings into, EMOMAN an EMOWOMAN!!! Jeng! Jeng! Jeng!

We stayed up from 9pm till 7am. And EmoSaz was da only guy who managed to stay awake throughout the whole ordeal. This followed by EmoSteph and last, EmoJa who snored for 2 hours. And during that 2 hours of mental break, the two other EmoSuperheroes did a prank on me. EmoSteph took da nail polishers that i grabbed from Patron's Day and painted it on me. My left fingernails and all of my TOES! I managed to only realise the prank after about 20 mins of trying to keep myself warm from the chill. MY TOES WERE FREAKING PINK! I wanted to puke there and then. I dunno why. I juz couldnt bear to look at em. It was so wrong.

It made me feel, weird, like freaking bapok siak. Ewww. -shakes head- ewww. thinking of it, eventhough, I've wiped it away still makes me go, EWWWWWWWWW. I'll get you for this EMOSAZ AND EMOSTEPH!

ja
P.Inc

Glassed Emotions

I drew on da glass
I spoke on da words
I sang on da emotions
I danced on da clouds
All i see, is bubbles.

ja
living in a fairytale

Vdae Songs

Happy Vdae peeps. Step juz painted her nails purple. Looks good wif her purple t-shirt. Saz is constantly playing EMO songs. This is truly the emo group. I'm sleepy and it doesnt help that these 2 are playing the slow emo songs. lol. amidst the workload, we were trying to score points on who can come up with good V dae songs. Here's a short list so far.

Fixing a broken heart
More than words
The way you look tonight
I live my life for you
I'll be
My girl
Everything I do
Back for good (take that!)

Some of da songs need to be kicked out. I'm semi-conscious right now. I hope i'm not typing nonsensical stuff over here.

Do add some of songs which you think deserved to be among the few above. I'll Be is in my top list. My fav.

ja
of flowers and pendants

Stupid Pick up lines

ok. dedicated to all the poor ladies out there who have met the wrong set of guys who juz uses LAME PICK UP LINES ON THEM. As a disclaimer, I have never used any of this tactics before. These are personal experiences of fellow friends and personal observations by yours truly. Some examples,

"hmm... you look familiar"
Familiar? Lol. This is one of da most commonly used. i mean, even though brad pitt looks like me, girls dont say that to me. Why ah? hmmm. -rubs chin-

"hmm... i've seen you before but i forgot where" lol. yeah right bro, maybe in your dreams or maybe juz 5 mins ago when you were queuing for your Happy Meal.

"hey nita!" when in actual fact, her name is something else. once that is done, da girl will look blur. he will continue saying, "you're nita right?" Then, the girl will shake her head and he will continue the conversation in his effort to slowly charm his way to get his number. This kinda trick is difficult to pull off unless the guy has charm or has a bloody cute face.

Wait theres more.

"Can you tell me how to double click your mouse?" wth.... i don't get this one. even though the girl is promoting computers, you don't have to go around trying to pretend to be Mickey Mouse and learn how to press the right buttons on her.

"Waah, you so skinny. Must buy chocolates from me" ........ lame... must be a salesman. Let's see da next one.

"Are you hurt?" The lady will reply no and asked why. "I thought it would hurt falling from the sky." He was implying that she is a fallen angel. URGGH!!! -punch that guy from left to right- LAME SIAK.

I think there is a better way of getting to know a girl. God knows how but I know there is a better way.

It's VOTING TIME! Which is the worst to you guys. And if you have any lame pick up lines that guys have used or YOU have used before, do contribute. at least the guys out there who reads this post knows what NOT to do. till then. love ya guys.

ja
iqd

My birthday milestones

how did i celebrate my birthdays so far. if i skip the years, it just means, i donno, perhaps i dont celebrate it or what not.

4 years old - quite big. invited people and had a big cake with my name on it.
16 years old - my dad woke me up at 4 am in the morning jsut to tell me that i've grown up and i should start to take care of myself. o.k.....
21 years old - home. made a pact to watch RA with my friend whose birthday is on the 6th of Feb. but it just didnt materialise even till today.
22 years old - went to swensens with my ex. that was the only time i took the time to celebrate after all those years
23 years old - went to hardrock cafe to watch Kumar's stand up comedy. i was called upon on stage to play a game and that fella had the cheeks to smack my butt.
24 years old - dunno yet

ja
i got my birthday wish. i wasn't late for Comms class. yay!!!

It's Official

It's been a long and winding road for me. Lots of downs than ups. But i've been really blessed to have met many great friends along the way.

everytime my birthday draws near, i dont seem to be excited. i never did. i guess, i was never brought up to really understand the importance of celebrating one's birthday. i do envy those who plan their own bdae and really can't wait to celebrate it with their friends and family members. Come to think of it, if you have Scrooge, the grump of Christmas, i'm his lil brother.

i still remember my 21st clearly. I made a pact wif my good friend that we're gonna watch our first RA together. His was on the 6th of Feb. Till now, we've yet to do it. hahaha. funny come to think of it.

my wish is to be happy always and hope that i can help more people before i die.

lemme sing my bdae song.

happy birthday to me
happy birthday to me
happy birthday to meeee....
happy birthday to me.

ja
happy birthday ja -blows candles-

Standing on thin wafer of ice

Freedom of speech. What nonsense. if you do not know how to exercise your freedom of speech, then there would be a lot of repercussions. The Denmark issue has erupted and the Muslims are exercising their rights towards protecting our Prophet Nabi Muhammad (Peace Be Upon Him).

The situation, taken from (http://www.bbc.co.uk/radio1/news/newsbeat/muhammad_cartoon.shtml)

Furious protests have kicked off all over the world since a series of sketches of the Prophet were printed in newspapers in Denmark, France and Jordan. One shows him with a bomb in his headdress. He says paradise is short of virgins for suicide bombers in another.

Comic strips are something we're used to in Britain but hand-drawn pictures of people (or any creature with a soul) are against Islam, as set out in Muhammad's sayings, the Hadith.

So a drawing of Islam's most important prophet is described by The Sun's Muslim journalist Anila Baig as "someone making fun of your parents... and then multiply it a million times." That it's also joking about terrorism is seen as even more provocative.

So is it wrong for the Muslims to be upset? Wouldn't you feel the same way if something dear to you is being insulted? We're talking about the whole Muslim population on Earth.

I really wonder who the publisher's are. Who are the writers? I really wonder because at the current moment, what the world see is just upset Muslims because there is no official apologies for what had happened. Does the world media show how hurt the rest of the Muslims are? Do they ever interview the peaceful ones who are silently angry?

There was never a problem before this. Everything was peaceful until some insensitive son of a gun had to stir some commotion. Haiz, i really don't understand the world at times. I just dont like da way the media twist the whole attention at the angry mob.

From what i heard, the Saudi govt had retracted many of the Denmark projects undergoing over there. That is how serious the situation is. I just wanna know who these people are. I wonder what they are doing right now as they watch their television screen, showing the effects of their insensitivities. They'd better not laugh cause it aint gonna be a pretty world for them.

ja
still eating the cheesecake. i love cheesecake!!!

Shooting star

i just saw one. do i need to make a wish? what do you guys wish for? i only make the impossible wishes because that is main purpose of a wish. you wish. i wished for something that can never happen. i wish it would.

ja
fallen star

In loving memory of my Uncle Rosli

A Poem Titled "Gone" By my younger brother, Joharie. This is his inner feelings behind his impenetrable surface.

Seem composed on the surface,
But for the stain on the face.
Tears have been shed,
Discreetly this heart bled.
Numbness initially felt,
Slowly the grief set.
This can't be true,
Last sunday I just met you.
Smiling and cracking jokes,
Mingling with all the folks.
No more loud laughter,
This place is quieter.
Seeing my aunt cry,
It is really no lie.
As if pricked by a thorn,
I finally accept that he is gone.

jo

May you be placed among the blessed ones in heaven

This is an entry dedicated to my favourite uncle, one who inspires me to be street and juz chase my wildest dreams. He was the one, who made me carry on my passion for music, a trade that has no certainty unless you have a firm head of succeeding no matter what. Guess what, he gave me that firm head.

He never fails to smile nor laugh. He never fails to be concerened about people and I still remember the night he came down to my house to visit me when i had fever as high as 39 degrees adn still didnt wanna go to the hospital. He was the only one who could make me move my ass and go to a nearby clinic.

I still cannot believe that he's gone. Leaving behind 6 kids and a wonderful wife saddens me just saddens me. I cried when i saw the kids teared for their father as they see him for one last time. i just cannot control myself. i cant even control myself as i type this now. i pity the kids especially Siti Fatimah who is just 3 years old. Her father used to hug her tight everyday and now, she feels kinda weird not having the normal daily hugs anymore.

I accepted the reality that his time has come. It's fated. Nobody can avoid that. But it is such a great loss for a man as cheerful, bubbly and knowledgable as him to leave this world in an abrupt manner. He has definitely changed my outlook in life. Being tough. Being a rebel with a good cause and how you've gotta stand up for what you really believe in and lead the life that you seek for because at the end of the day, the decision is not for them to make. It's me because only I can govern my life adn shape it to any mould that i desire. But his compassion for people never seems to surprise me. His sincerity just radiates from his actions. A man who gives but never seek to receive.

As i stood and see his motionless body, i took the chance to see his face. He made me smile despite the fact that i should be crying like the others before me. But, he looked calm and has a lil grin on his face. I cant deny that i cant hold back the tears but i was fighting it as i leaned forward to kiss his forehead for one last time. His forehead was cool and i can still feel the coldness on my lips now. It was an undescribable feeling that i have no words for.

I guess i'm one of da fortunate few who managed to see him smile before he left. i never knew how much he missed me all this while. Before he left from my cousin's function, he came up to me and gave me a good hug. He said, "I missed you a lot". Not many people says this to me and its hard for me to accept it because i've never thought of myself to be special enough to be missed by anybody. i'm just normal and dont think i've done enough for people. The few things he said that would be embedded in me till i die would be

"jamiel, if you wanna go and reach for the stars, go. don't worry about people. make me proud and make sure you have the last laugh"

strongs words that just hit me like a brick wall...

as i left his place, i accompanied my uncle in the van all the way till the cemetary and even went down to the grave to bring him down slowly to his eternal home. thats the least i could do for him and i really wanted to be there by his side until i can no longer be with him anymore. i hope he still thinks of me somewhere, somehow. the only thing i can really be sure is that he has certainly brighten up people's life because, whenever i close my eyes and think of him, he will be there, smiling and being cheerful as he had always been before.

thank you my friends who was there for me when i needed you the most. cant thank you enough.

to the man i admire, may i see you in heaven one day.

ja
in memory of rosli amri