The Nomad with No Cangkul

Options. While many relish the chance of being given options, I personally think that having options may weaken and distract you from giving your fullest attention and energy towards a certain objective. Unless you're strong headed, chances are, you might be swayed by the currents of societal pressure. Don't get drowned. Please.

Is it wrong to have an alternative, JUST in case we fail. If we do, does that mean we're indirectly preparing for failure? I am a firm believer of choosing the proper words to say to people and to one's self. Words are a powerful tool. If somebody tells me that I am stubborn, I would prefer to be called firm.

I used to tell myself that I go to school to complete my degree so that I could fall back on it IF I don't make it in music. You are already, without realizing, creating a mindset and preparing yourself for failure. The degree shouldn't be linked to my music in any way. One professional even asked me what my ambition was. When I replied that I want to be a rockstar, he smiled and asked why in the world was I doing in SMU. I gave him the "just in case I fail" reasoning and his straight answer was, "You are not ready to be one because your mindset is in the wrong direction".

It took me a while to digest. He is right. Some of us do have an inclination towards a path less taken and you KNOW that is the path that SHOULD be taken. The only problem is that, when you have other alternatives, your focus may get derailed unless you really set your sights on target.

This entry will most probably create opposing views. Sometimes, when you are left with no options, you tend to do very well in the only course of action. I think it's because you switched on your survival mode. When I was in Thailand, I could speak Thai pretty well because I had no choice. The people around my apartment could barely speak any form of English. If I wasn't faced with that situation and the people were English speaking, I wouldn't be able to ask for discounts at Jatujak market. Ever faced these sorts of situations before, where your survival mode kicked in and you outperformed yourself beyond your expectations? Funny isn't it. Right now, I'm leaving myself with no choice. Gotta steer myself straight at my targets within this 6 months and I know it's gonna be a tough ride.

jamiel
moving with only faith in your right hand