Dreams

Dreams.

Been having lots of them surprisingly and weird ones too. Been dreaming of friends and family in very interesting scenarios. And in those dreams, i spoke out my heart. What i've been wanting to say to many all this while but didn't get the chance to. I call this my sleep confessions; confessions that gave me relief as if a huge elephant was lifted off from my head when i told them of my true feelings. Feelings of hate, anger, love. Feelings which i can't explicitly say because i'm not the sort of person who can, especially those 3 mentioned above. So somebody must have really pushed me to the limit if i were to express any them. Thus far, not many have been able to witness them I guess.

Dreams are meant to tell you something. But what? That life is too short to keep your feelings to yourself and not let people know that they are being loved and appreciated for their existance? It's not worth keeping it to yourself. Yeah yeah, we've read all those spam and stories that talk about telling people how they should start telling their special ones that they love them before they disappear. True indeed, some of us may displace these absurd can-never-happen-to-me thoughts and delete them asap. But these are things that ALL of us have gone through believe it or not.

Not many of us have the experience of meeting our grandparents and listen to their stories. Friends have come and left and i dont think we thank our friends enough in this life. Special crushes have come and go without knowing that "I AM DYING TO TALK TO YOU!!!" See? Everybody's gone thorough this and before long, we will start to remember all those interesting moments and how we should have said certain things to certain people at that certain point of time. I guess among all, we should start expressing our love to our parents.

How many of us send text messages to our parents saying, "Take care on the road and at work Mom and Dad. Love ya" How many? Are you one of them? Not many. Strangely, we don't mind spending countless hours with your other halves but how many of us spare a thought of even just 5 minutes to call your mom up and tell her that you will be home late? I am guilty for the latter charge. I've been trying to change. So i hope you guys would to. I'm not enforcing anything but realising since secondary school that parents have the most difficult job on earth, which is doing a lot of things for the first time. Things such as raising a baby for the first time, raising a 14 year old son for the first time, then the next year raising a 15 year old child for the first time and my parents are raising a 23 year old gorilla for the first time and they are still trying to figure out what is the best way to raise this gorilla.

Time is scarce and I've learnt to remember my grandma and parents more in life and praying for their safety and better health every single day. No harm doing that.

I'm typing my sms text to my parents now. Why don't you give it a shot?

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